Thursday, July 29, 2004
attacks raining down on me!
shots i've recieved..
a bottle of stars
2 letters
3 cards
the list goes on
worst and most frustrating of all... they're all anonymous!!!!! wouldnt it be a lot nicer and braver if you could kindly leave a name behind?? i dont think there is anything awful about it?? not gonna laugh at it or anything..
t
Tuesday, July 27, 2004
when you believe
last night at the elijah challenge was unforgettable. really opened my eyes to the wonders of God. did you know that every believer has the authority to heal and do miracles?? this is because every believer is given a 'standard issue weapon' (haha.... like tt term.) to take down the enemy. it sounds super cool to me coz i can like imagine myself carrying a m16 and shooting all the demons down like rambo... haha..
too bad i couldnt go tonight due to the ever growing Mount. Homework i had to conquer in one night.... anyway... felicia juz msg me saying tt aaron's mom just went up for healing...shes deaf btw.. so cool.. waiting for feli's msg again..
oh!! i just got feli's msg... aaron's mom didnt get hear hearing back. yeah... o well... maybe it isnt God's time yet... but still gotta keep the faith. anyway.. apparently there were still a few miracles tt happened. thank God for tt..
to every1 who is reading this... there is a mass healing event going on tmr at 745pm... so if you wanna check out God's awesome power at work or know someone who is in pain... bbtc (300 Bedok North Ave 3, Singapore 469717) is the place to be..
t
Saturday, July 24, 2004
europhia
today was parent-teacher meeting. my teachers were telling my parents the customary, usual and boring bits and pieces... "oh.. you're son is a very good boy...hes very teachable and attentive....you're sooo fortunate .. just that i think
he's too quiet (i've heard this over and over again in my 10 plus yrs as a student).."
look. i keep quiet in class which is why i suppose i'm a good boy. i keep quiet so tt i
appear to be teachable. i keep quiet so as to again
appear to be a attentive in class. so what are you implying by saying tt i'm too quiet??? : - /
its amazing how your diff teachers tt you have in your entire student life tell your parents the exact same thing.
today's camp com dinner has finally and i mean FINALLY taken place. it was of good fun and laughter at fish and co. wld definitely be lookin forward for another time with the wacky camp com if theres a chance.. haha. oh!! btw felicia, if you're reading this... we forgot to play the slapping and bang bang and etc. games with them yet!! whats a waste! we have to do so one of these days.
t
Thursday, July 22, 2004
*sniff*
still -
s i c k- ... nuff said..
t
Wednesday, July 21, 2004
sick
i hate the fever. i hate the blocked nose. i hate the throbbing headaches. i cant even do my work. worst of all, my coach wouldnt lemme play in the epee team event.
one word - miserable.
oh btw joy.. i just wanted to assure you that its totally NOT your fault.. so pls dont feel bad about it.. it must have been the crazy pe on mon.
anyway, watched the screening of love actually in sch today. now i know why every1 was like bugging me to watch it. it was humourous, romantic, heart-wrenching and humourous all in one... yup... it kicks butt! oh, did i mention that it was humourous too?
t
Tuesday, July 20, 2004
hear these praises from a greatful heart
i got a lime green cast... but nope... it doesnt stop there..y? coz i wore a super-duper shocking lime green baju melayu to sch today!!! ... racial harmony day rox. joy told me yest that i shld wear something green to match my cast.. i just thought that it made sense, but lil did i know tt i really would do so!! haha..
my injured arm has been causing me to feel rather afraid, sad and devastated lately. that i think was really stupid of me. its not until i start to leave everything into God's hands that i realise tt this broken arm of mine is much of a blessing rather than a curse..
1. when i look through all the get-well cards, notes of encouragment and scribbles on my cast... i start to realise that there is actually a huge no. of pple out there who actually care for you... and i couldnt help but feel
blessed..
2. i finally know wat being disabled feels like... and i'm still considered lucky the way i am compared to those with permanant disabilities...
3. it really reinforces on what i think about how God works in diff ways to wise u up a lil...
so i guess that leaves me to say a very big THANK YOU to God and everyone else who gave me the much needed strength
t
Saturday, July 17, 2004
the dampness in my eyes
the kiddy sports day was kinda cool for me today.. all the cute lil kids and stuff.. hah. from what i saw today.. being a parent is like one of the greatest joy in life.. nothing but of smiles. : )
alvin kept saying today that i looked depressed... i guess i was. i've been really overwhelmed with trepidation and apprehension today.. i've injured my hand quite a few times b4, but this time.. its feels really different. what if i cant play the guitar like i used to when the cast is finally removed? the more i thought i about it, the more i felt a sense a fear. i was
so afraid.. so afraid...
it had always been a dream to play the guitar to serve God... i've always prayed for it. now that i am.. i cant imagine it being taken away from me just like that.. sounds wimpy... but if it's to happen...
i'd cry.
thats why i really thank God for people like felicia and my cg who helps me to kept my focus on Him and cast my worries aside. :)
on a lighter tone... i and timmo bought battlefield vietnam! i it think would knock my socks off (hopefully my aging computer doesnt gets knocked down by the heavy graphics instead).
t
Thursday, July 15, 2004
pass out
dear diary, i passed out 4 times today.......
school was long and toturing for my sleep-deprived body. but i'm still gonna fast and pray.. :) nothing was more deserving than a break right after maths lect. i went back to class to put my notes back and i saw a weird bulge in my bag. i unzipped it and surprise.. a nice lil bottle of colourful stars in a some liquid with a letter stuck to it. i've still no idea who placed it there secretly. i took it out and all of a sudden... the cap came off and the contents went all over my books and notes...
*duane passed out once today*
i went to changi hospital today for a checkup on my arm.
i asked the doc.. "so doc.. you told me two weeks ago that my arm would take 3 weeks to heal right? so i guess i've only got a week left.."
doc said..."oh.. judging from what i see now.. hmm.. i'll need to cast you for another
SIX WEEKS...
*duane passed out again today*
i then went to the plaster room to get a new full hard cast..
cast technician, "so.. what colour do you want?"
me.. "anything else besides the usual white?"
cat technician, "oh yes.. i've got green"
he took out a packet, cut it open and it was SHOCKING LIME GREEN!!
me.. "ermm.. thanks uncle.. but any other colours?"
blur cast technician, "oh.. er.. i just opened it.. so sorry but you have no choice but to put this (SHOCKING LIME) green one on.."
*duane passed out the third time today*
i'm tired, sleepy and looking like a traffic light.. my eyelid is heavy...
*duane will soon pass out on his bed the fourth and final time today*
t
surprise
gee.. didn't know tt having a blog was so surprising.. haha... in fact, i've blogged for two plus yrs already and it was a rather private blog.. maybe tt was why.
esther: haha.. don't worry. its not as if they would hold a huge grudge against you. (who would even dare??) alrite..i'll apologise to them for u k?
today was lameness personified!! haha.. hilarious. i played even more lame and somewhat
"logical" games today during the meeting for the helpers of the kindy sports day thingy.. boy.. really cracked me up. thanks every1.. really needed tt.
t
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
dare me?
Switchfoot - I Dare You To Move
Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next?
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before
Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be
Maybe redemption has stories to tell
maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here
when was the last time you really... like REALLY dared to do something u never dared thought u would even think of daring?.. hah.. yeah... especially when you're staring right into the face of tension itself.... man...
t
Monday, July 12, 2004
behind the grades
B, B, C, F(!!!)
these grades suck! and i'm still waiting for my chem which most probably adds another F to my list... sigh.. but its worth thanking God for.. coz i didnt even study much..oh... i cant believe i topped the class again this time in gp, and whats most unbelievable, i topped with a C!!! haha.. either the gp paper really was tough or my class(includin me)has really -powderful england-. now to the sadder part of the story.. the F belongs to my maths...sigh..nuff said..
today was also d-day. dooms day. or rather d-much-dreaded-n-feared-AOchinese-oral-exams day. the phobia kicked in again. dont know why i'm always so terrified bout chinese oral. but all went well.. coz God once again carried me through.. thanks.
t
Sunday, July 11, 2004
mind games
wahahaha... its half past 11 and i am still racking my lil brain over some riddle tt felicia gave me... haha... i am still asking her qns non-stop!! argh.. and she wont tell me! i've got to figure it out yself... my head's exploding..
church was not bad today.. God blessed my cg with a full attendence.. lcg meeting was ok.. considering my cg was talking crap most of the time.. haha.. after that.. some of da boyz and a few others were playing some 'magic' game and even after playing it fer an hour or so... me and felicia were still dumbfounded over the game.. lol..super lame
.. then both of us came up with a senseless game and fooled them instead!! hah!
dinner at raffles town club caused me to bloat big time. it was grandma's 72nd b'dae.
WARNING: buffet causes u to bloat to the point of near explosion if you're not self-controlling enuff
t
Saturday, July 10, 2004
too close for comfort
phew... i nearly missed the A lvl chinese listening by a hair!!!! firstly, my alarm clock failed me.. second, my dad thought it was on monday.. so he went out in the morning leaving me with no transport to school!! i panicked BIG TIME.. i got up, then changed without even washing up or combing my hair, got my mom to wake up and fetch me to school. i hit from bed to road in 3 mins!! record time!! and with only one hand!! wahaha... (no idea what so funny bout tt).. anyway.. reached there just b4 it started.. THANK GOD!!! i was praying all the way and boy did He carry me through.
i hate my broken arm and cast. its causing me to itch. not skin itch but the ITCH TO PLAY MY GUITAR!! and do everything else with not 1, not 3, but TWO hands!! that said.. i guess God gave me a brokem arm for a purpose/reason like wat esther and joy told me. well.. guess so.. like wat leon said to me online too: i might come back playing the guitar with even more passion and fevor!! hah.. hope so.
t
Friday, July 09, 2004
something new
it was about time i got a new blog. the previous one had too much of my troubling and rather personal thoughts cluttered inside... after all, its like a breath of fresh air. which was why i got this ass-kicking layout!! haha..
so far..got my physics back... a B(68 marks).. which apparently topped the class.. quite a relief for me coz i seriously thought i'd flunk it big time.. guess i'll need to wait for my other 3 F's to sink me to the rock-bottom of the class..sigh..
todays belated youth day celebration was a butt-whoopin and gut-bustin one!! hahaha.. the teachers sure did put in a lot of effort.. far far far much better than my sec sch's celebrations.. the sappy sing-along songs, the band that seemed to play while reading the scores upside-down.. total waste of time..
t
broken
my left arm is broken. it STINKS typing with one hand. later~
t