Monday, November 29, 2004
when its over
busy busy busy..
songs to learn, solos to master, a drama to do, a dance to
try, mission trip to experience, problems to solve.. and all for God.
worth it.
t
Saturday, November 20, 2004
wake up my friend
sometimes.. its weird how some people shrug off their partners just like that. like how you dust off the dirt off your shoulders. well.. news flash - they're not.
i dont get it...
there she is.. waiting on you all the time. doing stuff for you, caring for you.. even sacrificing her precious time to help you get through your somewhat pathetic problems.
and there you are.. shoving her away on the basis that she doesnt care enough for you.. that she doesnt bother to spend time with you.
you have
no idea how capable we are of hurting someone deeply.
you should jolly well know which
individual i'm referring to. i don't care if this entry pisses you off... cause i'm far more pissed off than that. and don't even think of saying again that i dont have the right to say this.. cause you don't even have the right mentality to spell the word 'rights'.
you should be happy that i'm not splashing your name on this screen. and its not because i'm afraid of bursting your capricious ego or tarnishing your sensitive reputation. but its because she still cares for you... despite what you've done.
sigh..dude.. having a girlfriend is a blessing from God that should be well kept.. not a privilege, not a prize trophy you bring about, not your servant.. but a blessing
don't worry if you think that i don't care about you as a friend anymore... because i'll keep praying for you. i'll keep praying for the day when God would just give you a wake-up smack in the head. Amen.
t
Thursday, November 18, 2004
super hero
i borrowed spiderman 2 dvd recently. rocks. the graphics, the action, the audio effects.. you name it. but with all the aside... the storyline.
spidey loved mary-jane. mary-jane loved spidey. this is what i call a perfecto situation. but then.. spidey rejected mj. why? well.. enemies, trouble, danger.. and the sticky hands maybe? :)
anyway.. what i was thinking was.. what if we meet with a situation, when we love someone so much, that we'll have to let that person go... boy oh boy.. that requires a lot more than the mere powers of super heroes. i don't even want to think about that happening to me... seems like some ultimate test from God. but then.. even if it doesnt happen to me.. what if it does happen to you; the person who happens to chance upon this?
just want to say that regardless of who we are, what we do in life, how strong we are and how much web we can shoot out of our wrist... overcoming such things can hurt so much. but if it ain't hurt, it ain't love isnt it?
we need something more that super powers... we need God.
t
Monday, November 15, 2004
i can..
i can...
sing
dance
act
teach english
share
play the guitar
speak good chinese
stay close to God
hm.. just words to boost and encourage myself on the things thats to come this holiday. i've got a new girlfriend anyway. her name is autumn. very pretty, tanned, curvy, multi-talented, multi-purporse, sophisticated, sweet sounding.. and not to mention that i've just changed all her six strings to brand new ones. she rocks.
t
Monday, November 01, 2004
sometimes.. i think i'm selfish.. but i can't stop feeling..
"Somewhere In The Middle" - Dishwalla
--
I was out the other day
and I saw you in your big black car
and I was waving as you were passing
cause I know who you areyou had this look that of an angel
it was such a bad disguise
did you think for second I would not realize
--
tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down cause I'm somewhere in the middle of this
--
I was out the other night
and I saw you so we had a fightit was late and I was lonely
and its such a long way home
so I asked you if you'd join me for a single last call drink
so you turned and bought us 2
and you didn't even blink
you had this look that of an angel
it was such a bad disguise
when you drink it makes you angry
when I drink I want you more and more and more
--
well I find it hard I always tried to find the sane life
but I don't like the way things are
and I keep falling to my knees
somewhere in the middle of this
--
t