on the tram. where i think.

Monday, May 23, 2005

even the stars refuse to shine

back from youth retreat. really cool. not so much about the fun and the sun (i'm red and in pain) ... but more about the bonding and deeper understanding with others and with God. bad sadly.. it came as a shock when we were told that pastor hong's wife passed away. it was so sudden that it practically brought silence to everyone's mind. but after thinking and sharing with my cell.. i've decided not to question God's authority.. depsite how unfair it may seem. sometimes.. its for a higher purpose.
i even realised that when i spent the whole two nights looking at the night sky, it seemed as though that there were far less stars in the second night.. even though i knew that they were still all out there. guess sometimes.. its not the situation thats changing and becoming different.. its the way we feel that makes things seem different. we can be emotionally deluded at times.

and i'd also like to remind someone that when its time to let go.. let go. its tough.. but theres no point looking back and hoping that he'll take you back. he won't. face it. i'm not trying to be harsh.. but rather.. factual about it. if you let yourself become broken.. then you're no winner. and there's no point attracting all the sympathies. friends can give you support.. but its your battle and decision in the end. smile and cheer up :). you're much much wiser and stronger than that. will keep you in prayer
ps: i can box him for you if you want to! haha... ok.. kiddin.

t