on the tram. where i think.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
today. i'm trying to write only about today so that i won't be pressured to remember all the wacky and retarted stuff that happened during that past few days.
today.. played golf in the crazyily hot weather with some italian dude, marco. some businessman who's here for some water chlorination project. haha.. and i thought that was pretty cool coz i just learnt about the processes of water chlorination in chem lect. but apparently.. despite being in such the business for a decade.. he knows nuts about it.. haha. guess he's just into the econs aspect of it. anyway.. with all that aside.. i should talk about his golf. boy.. watching him play was like watching espn. he sunk in huge footers like nobody's business and blazed thought the fairways with his driver. so it's no doubt that i looked like an absolute retart playing beside him. but still gotta thank him for giving me two things. aspiration and sheer retartdation.
today.. i ran all around bedok to find my mom a mother's day gift. i had only 15 mins left before all the shops would close. it reminded me of last xmas when i had to run all around singapore to get all the needed presents in one day. anyway.. i was hobbing all around bedok until God gave me a nice nudge and told me to stop and turn right. and i thank Him for that.. coz if not.. i wouldnt have got a korean drama serial which would rock my mom's socks off. thats what happens when ingenuity and God come together. ;)
this point onwards.. its going to be senseless ramblings.
i feel like i really need God at the moment.. just that i dont really know what is going wrong. its like feeling sick but you cant tell the doc whats wrong. and certain pple may just say stuff that may be slightly untrue or deviated.. and it just really gets into you. just when i was about to say.. 'so much for trying to be a mr nice guy', God showed me psalms 34:19 "A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all." so instead of that.. what i can say now is 'bugger off'. and its sad how pple these days make assumptions, postulations and guessworks on grounds that dont even exist. but i'm ok with it as always. coz life never spices up without such speculations in life. and stating one of my 2005 resolutions - "be more sociable with pple around me". i think i've been really improving and working into that and able to stike it off as a successful check on the list. but after one of those long deep thinking that really really sets you thinking... and thoughts that go into a scattering frenzy, i've realised that i've been socially irresponsible. why? i think coz i've been giving too many wrong signals which only leads to misunderstanding. and there are actually several people out there whom i WANT to know more about and socialise. but right now.. thats not quite happening. once again.. raise up your hand if you understand these scratchings.
i need to smile more
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