on the tram. where i think.

Sunday, August 28, 2005

who am i

something really really deep struck me when i was thinking. do the people around you really know you? i somehow realised that maybe.. no one actually knows you. i'm not trying to say that we're all hypocrites and that we put up a false front everytime. its not a facade that i'm talking about. what i'm trying to say here is that.. maybe we are different persons in front of different people.
for example.. james would think that i'm one hellava lamer coz of the crappy fun i have with him. kirsten might look at me as a joker coz she practically laughs at every lil thing that i say. my sec 2 cell might be regard me as a wise and mature leader. da boyz would think i'd be always the 'blur and dopey' one. the j1 juniors might think that i'm super dao and antisocial guy. while edwin might think that i'm mr sensitive coz of all the relationship advices i give him.
AND.. lets say if everyone one who knows me comes together to talk about me and my life (sounds like my funeral i know).. wont they go like - "boy.. duane sure is one person whom i thought of very differently''
haha.. so you get the point?? SO.. the million $ question you might wanna ask is.. 'who am i?' well.. i tried asking myself that and was mentally dumbfounded. i even got kinda scared. i mean.. if i dont even know who i am.. then so much for personal identity! then.. haha.. God so nicely 'dedicated' this song in my player just at that moment. by jars of clay..

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