on the tram. where i think.
Monday, January 30, 2006
chu er wow. i like cny. its not about the angpaos......ok. maybe a bit. but its more of meeting people. especially when you get to meet those you only get to see once a year. and i've come to realise that you can guage how well the economy is doing by looking at the number angpaos you recieve during cny. haha.
now this is one festive that drains every bit in you. i am SO burnt out. yet there's more visiting tmr. my family literally celebrates 15 days of cny. and my parents are opening up their place tmr. malay food buffet on cny. haha. anyone who is interested to come over please msg me. my mum ordered 'insanely excess food'. so it's pretty much an arms-wide-open concept.
ok. this is serious. one of my resolutions is to improve my hokkien. was sitting with my ah ma and grand aunts today. i tried to converse in hokkien. ended up making everyone at the table laugh their heads off... like i just cracked some hilarious hokkien joke. i mean.. i CAN speak quite a bit hokkien. maybe artculation a bit off. but whatever it is.. i think i still need some improvement. sigh.. and its rather saddening that hardly any of the cousins can speak hokkien. for people their age.. understood speech from the young is like loving embrace.
t
Monday, January 23, 2006
Philosophize Me i've been pondering over some stuff really intensely after conversing to some people.
was talking to zhong, mr philosophy himself, a few weeks ago when i stayed over at his place. we shared a lot of stuff. like studies.. our lives.. the future.. then he shared about something he read that really hit me like a freight train.
what if people's lives were made up of layers.. layers of status, friends, goals, money, pride, dreams.. etc.. and when these layers are peeled off one by one.. what would be the core of it all? a void?
and that was a really intensely frightening thought. i mean.. if i wasn't a christian and lived a life without the Spirit in me.. what will i become if all these layers were to be peeled off? i guess i'd just be a corpse walking around. so when i think of my friends who dont have God in their hearts.. it gets rather saddening. because they are leading happy lives only because of the many layers they have. but when all our layers peel off.. will they still have joy?
justin shared something that was extremely demoralising last week. haha. he shared about this book that he read.. "thoughts" by G.Leopardi. this author very much believes that every person has some degree of evilness. . the more evil.. the better your survival. and nice guys always finish last and lose out in every aspect in life. justin was like.. "believe me man.. the bad guys always get everything.. the girls, the winning hand and etc." and i was like.. "no way! that sucks! i dont believe in that.." sigh. and now i just dont know.
and clubbing. haha.. jingmin was asking for my thoughts on clubbing as a church leader. and that was when i REALLY gave a thorough thought about it. and i suddenly realised that i'm not exactly proud to proclaim that i lead a bunch of boys in bible study every sat and also club whenever i recieve an invitation. it just sounds wrong in a way. so here comes along a pact to excercise abstinece till march. hope fun would still be in the air. haha.. tough. well.. nobody said walking a straight line to God was easy.
t
Thursday, January 19, 2006
thinking of flowers
Now wind torments the field,
turning the white surface back
on itself, back and back on itself.
Nothing but white--the air, the light;
only one special bloom, I'll find,
bobbing in the gully, smallest.
That single colourful sprouting thing
would restore me. .
So I look to no fate,
for such beauty, worth the wait.
man.. when i saw that picture. it took me.. so i took it. and now i've to trouble myself in finding a wall space in my room to mount it. haha.
and all of a sudden.. i can't remember what else i wanted to write about. next time.
t
Friday, January 13, 2006
let the world see Jesus duane bored. he updates.
this new song rocks and its really meaningful. and tmr is going to be the first youth service at hall 1. its an honour to be the first worship team in hall 1 as jeffery said. so we all have to do our best for God.. as we all do week after week. cant wait for the the new ym hall to be ready.
tmr is esther's beauty pageant at mos. and i'll be accompanying zhong who refuses go unless he gets some male company. haha. and i heard so much about mos.. the hoos and haas. i never really thought much about it. but guess i'll still end up experiencing it. hope its not another boring bummer night at a club really. and esther's so pretty.. sure can score one la. haha.
t
Thursday, January 12, 2006
nudge me i've added plus points to my productivity today. i'm teaching felicia and jolene guitar every wed night at their place. tonight being the first lesson. so much better then what i've been doing every other normal boring day. business is thriving indeed.. now evelyn is interested. haha.
i miss the sun really.. i mean.. look at the songs i've been listening to..
taking back sunday - you are so last summer
sheryl crow - soak up the sun
rooster - staring at the sun
muse - house of the rising sun
maroon5 - sunday morning
joe diffe - third rock from the sun
the corrs - summer sunshine
aqualung - brighter than sunshine
smash mouth - walking on the sun
three doors down - away from the sun
sex pistols - holiday in the sun
rage against the machine - people of the sun
t
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
some people have been telling me that army is life changing and a rather big thing. and so here i am feeling rather confused. i mean.. its just two years of physical training, toughening and growing up. yes.. i admit that it can be phyically and spiritually challenging. but i dont see the point of blowing up the whole matter.. as if it's the biggest event a young man can ever face in this testosterone-laden period of his life. its just ONE of the things that every male has to face. so if you still regard it as the biggest looming misfortune.. well fine.. it would be so for every 18 yr old male too. so much for a personal achievement i say. and i still know a handful who are trying every political method required to send them safely away in exile.
and for all i know.. i maybe be writing this to soothe my own unsettled self.
in the words of lieutenant kelly of the big red one..
"The lord is my shepherd.. the lord is my shephard.. the lord is my shephard...."
t
Monday, January 09, 2006
i'm starting to have songs in my computer!!! rejoice!!
t
Sunday, January 08, 2006
talking about a resolution this should be the world's and everyone's theme for 2006..
LET THERE BE LOVE
Who kicked a hole in the sky so the heavens would cry
over me?
Who stole the soul from the sun in a world come undone at the
seams?
Let there be love Let there be love
I hope the weather is calm as you sail up your heavenly
stream
Suspended clear in the sky are the words that we sing in our
dreams
Let there be love Let there be love Let there be love - Let there be love
Come on baby blue
Shake up your tired eyes
The world is waiting for you
May all your dreaming fill the empty sky
But if it makes you happy
Keep on clapping
Just remember I'll be by your side
And if you only go, it's gonna pass you by
my first resolution..
-to complete my whole list of resolutions for 2006 by next week
t
Friday, January 06, 2006
shucks.. there goes christmas
i dreamt of red and green
thought of cold white
12 days i did
smile i did
fly away
come back soon
now i look to red and gold
sulk i must not
15 days i will not
till then
t
Thursday, January 05, 2006
walkaholic went back to cj today to check out the cca pasar. nothing exciting. after which i embarked once again on a solo journey in the heart of the city.
explored town for a few hours.. cooped myself up in borders to listen to music non-stop and read literature. walked somemore. bumped into some friends. then went to simlim and funnan to drool over the coolest gadget. haha.. welcome to my life. i can't wait for my working days to arrive.
then met alv and zhong to watch leon's play at substation. it was a rock adaptation of shakespeare's merchant of venice. for starters.. i'm no shakespeare.. and i dont beg to tell niegh pray tell my most humbling words that fall like graceful swan droppings and sink like luscious rocks unto thee pond. but still.. i thoroughly enjoyed (and understood) it with my fellow english scholar (alv) and literature heartbreaker (zhong). very impressive guitar work too. and of course.. leon once again won over the heart of the fair maiden and shared a kiss under spotlight. that i aspired to do so one day.. whether or not on or off the stage.
t
Monday, January 02, 2006
2006 this is the first post of the year 2006.
smash was quite special this year.. with all the wacky costumes.. the punk chics, construction workers, troy warriors, terrorists(!!), pirates, sushi girls, greek goddesses.. haha. my cell wanted to keep their dignity by wearing prom get-ups. haha. but i wouldnt mind dressing up like a knight or something else wacky. have to say that this year's smash was a lil draggy. but all in all.. it was good fun. (especially the suan-ing alv part) haha. and nothing beats starting and ending the countdown with worship.
after smash.. the whole bunch of esmond, dre, timmo, alv, zhong, leon, darryl, gabriel and daniel came over to cram up in my room. we had the usual loads of crappy fun. the funniest thing was that funny man alv came over and straight away fell asleep on my bed!! haha.. not the 'thon-ning' kinda i must say.
well.. quite a few guys from db are going into ns already. time flies. whatever it is.. i'll be praying hard for their safety. and yes lar es.. i will miss you like crazy and cry everyday for you. just do the same for me when i get in. haha.. and dont get to hard up about getting in man. be happy at all times. ; )
2006..oh man. its going to be another year of highlights, hits and misses. the first highlight of the year i'm spot-lighting at the moment. CNY!! haha.. GONG XI FA CAI!!
t