on the tram. where i think.
Monday, January 23, 2006
Philosophize Me i've been pondering over some stuff really intensely after conversing to some people.
was talking to zhong, mr philosophy himself, a few weeks ago when i stayed over at his place. we shared a lot of stuff. like studies.. our lives.. the future.. then he shared about something he read that really hit me like a freight train.
what if people's lives were made up of layers.. layers of status, friends, goals, money, pride, dreams.. etc.. and when these layers are peeled off one by one.. what would be the core of it all? a void?
and that was a really intensely frightening thought. i mean.. if i wasn't a christian and lived a life without the Spirit in me.. what will i become if all these layers were to be peeled off? i guess i'd just be a corpse walking around. so when i think of my friends who dont have God in their hearts.. it gets rather saddening. because they are leading happy lives only because of the many layers they have. but when all our layers peel off.. will they still have joy?
justin shared something that was extremely demoralising last week. haha. he shared about this book that he read.. "thoughts" by G.Leopardi. this author very much believes that every person has some degree of evilness. . the more evil.. the better your survival. and nice guys always finish last and lose out in every aspect in life. justin was like.. "believe me man.. the bad guys always get everything.. the girls, the winning hand and etc." and i was like.. "no way! that sucks! i dont believe in that.." sigh. and now i just dont know.
and clubbing. haha.. jingmin was asking for my thoughts on clubbing as a church leader. and that was when i REALLY gave a thorough thought about it. and i suddenly realised that i'm not exactly proud to proclaim that i lead a bunch of boys in bible study every sat and also club whenever i recieve an invitation. it just sounds wrong in a way. so here comes along a pact to excercise abstinece till march. hope fun would still be in the air. haha.. tough. well.. nobody said walking a straight line to God was easy.
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