on the tram. where i think.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
choices its scary to make choices especially when you know that its going to determine a big part of your future. there's so much i want to do, learn and achieve in life that i hate placing myself within a specialised area. but thats life i guess.. be it studies or work. i dont fear that the choices i make would be detrimental to my future.. i'm just afraid that i won't be happy. i see people in rush hour.. with hardly a smile on their faces. they live for 9 to 5. and its 9 to 5 to live. but right now.. i'm going to face the fact that there's no running away from the black n white manhattan life. BUT i'm also going to drill into myself that i can still make my life different, unique and thrilling whether or not i'll be earning a living behind a counter, desk or wheel.
so i've been blessed with God's grace to get results that i know i dont truly deserve. and just after the release of results, i've been reposted from ndu to tekong. everyone has been telling me that its a blessing. hm.. yeah.. maybe. whatever it is.. its all God's complex plan. i like to look at the beauty of it. i think being an officer is still going to be as tough a challenge.
right now.. i'm working on my application essay. i really hope i'll get a chance in the scholarship. if not.. oh well.. i've still a lifetime of choices. :)
haha. and i'm getting the FUNNIEST present ever from joy. a tube of bonjela!! hahahahaha. i'm still highly amused.
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