on the tram. where i think.
Sunday, June 18, 2006
start of block leave was the blissful part. now this is the sad sad sad part. i've revisited and laid out all my stuff on the floor and done a checklist.. now whats left is compressing all the contents into one little duffel bag and making a trip down to beach road to buy more stuff to burst the bag further. and all this for 3 weeks confinement. where's the justice?? no wait.. where's the logic!? i need to write a poem on inequitability haha. on the other hand.. i'm super confident that i'll survive every bit of what's left. God was really amazing throughout the my three months.. grace beyond my own feeble comprehension.
its 3.11am and i cant sleep. i was cable tv surfing on my bed and i saw this taiwanese show. its one of those reality tv where they pry their noses into every little business that doesnt concern them. this episode was about some couple who was to get married on that day. everything was good and perfect and all.. until the exchanging of the vows. the guy was like 'i do' already.. then when it was her turn.. she starting blabbering all sorts of chinese about his mother her mother.. this and that, and she walked away. i was thinking, "hmm.. cool drama.." then i realised, huh? its REALITY TV! the bride-to-be actually DID walked off the wedding!! wah.. the groom was pitiful man.. he was staring at the church entrance for who knows how long even though she went off. i bet to my last dollar that he's either going for suicide or a month long drinking session. seriously.. i can almost empathize. Imagine. you are finally ready to share your whole life ahead with your other half. you pratically waited your twenty plus years for this one person and chance. nothing is going to stop you. full bliss full steam ahead. and then.. "NO". haha.. oh man.
i remember uncle kum kwong saying that you can never be too sure until the moment she really says 'i do'. that seems so scarily true.
ah finally. i'm sleepy.
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