on the tram. where i think.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Surprise Me

i would just like to say thank you. funny how i was blogging about the expression of thanks.

2nd February 2008
"..if only there was a better way to say thank you to someone. not just the simple words of 'thank you'. but a thank you that requires you to lay out your heart to show that you really mean it.. still knowing that even that won't be enough.
and thank you God.."

As much as this entry is inevitable. I found it very uncomfortable. Very unfitting to type out in words. But then again it must be the overwhelming emotional effect. People kept saying that i could have just cried. Darn right i could. I had to swallow tears for crying out loud. It was really uncomfortable. I kept asking myself stupid questions.. How could that many do that much for just that one? Why would all of them get out of their comfort zones on such a perfect evening? Why all the sacrifice? I just couldn't make sense of it all. But i know that in the end, God would make sense of it all somehow someway. And after some quiet time, the message couldn't be clearer. If i reckon that i rightfully deserve to be a child of God, joint heir with Christ, why bother questioning anything else? I have no right to weigh my life as it is.

Nevertheless, to those who mean so much to me,

Thank you loving me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it. But I then again, I have not said much because there is nothing I can say that would describe how I feel as perfectly as you deserve it.

t

Thursday, February 14, 2008

Happy Valentine's

cut the chase.
buy a wife. :)

t

Monday, February 11, 2008

just ranting a bit

its a long list of to do's and ranting. but i should feel better in the end. firstly, my jaw hurts. i went away for weeks and now its back. according to wiki research, its probably wisdom tooth. if it really is, it would be hilarious, considering that i just ord-ed and have passed the chance of doing it all for free. to make things worse its only 8 days before i fly. definitely between the devil and the deep deep blue sea. also i realised that i might have just lost my 11b. another hilarious thing considering that i just had the NSman sticker pasted on it. oh boy the chances and irony. oh and did i mention that i cant leave the country yet, mainly due to the fact that the department i've been trying to contact has been busy celebrating cny, disabling me from disrupting my reservice and moving on to studies. of course i cant forget the fact that i'm still not paid my allowance for my last month as an NSF. so tmr it would be a call to NSPC to wake them up, a long needed haircut, a police report, CMPB visit and a trip to the dentist if my jaw still hurts tmr. oh and maybe get some speakers for my laptop to cheer things up a bit

t

Thursday, February 07, 2008

the pile of shoes

there's cny. and so there's the visitation. ang pows. the receiving of guests. the good food and good talk. and a cheery conclusion at the end of the night.
..till you meet the pile of ladies shoes outside that is.

"omygosh! its tangled with yours! duane ah, come and help" (+5mins)
"*gasp* where did you get that pair from? its so nice! and..." (+15mins)
"eh?? where's the left side?!" (+10mins)
"aiyoh! the heel's broken!" (+10 mins)

and just when you thought its over you see one walking back

"faster call them back! this is not mine!" (pending)

t

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

leaving it all behind.






i guess it takes a while to settle in. few days.. weeks maybe. anyway let me reintroduce myself. i'm LTA MR Duane Ho
and now if you would follow me in pumping the left fist into the air followed by the right..

ord loh

t

Saturday, February 02, 2008

stop. drop. roll.

its not only the petrol or dough prices thats going up. but my spending as well. exponentially in fact. can't help it though.. with all the traveling and meals with the long list of people i've been meeting. not to mention that time isn't even on my side. but hey.. its a feel good thing in the end. :)

if only there was a better way to say thank you to someone. not just the simple words of 'thank you'. but a thank you that requires you to lay out your heart to show that you really mean it.. still knowing that even that won't be enough.

and thank you God.

t