on the tram. where i think.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Surprise Me

i would just like to say thank you. funny how i was blogging about the expression of thanks.

2nd February 2008
"..if only there was a better way to say thank you to someone. not just the simple words of 'thank you'. but a thank you that requires you to lay out your heart to show that you really mean it.. still knowing that even that won't be enough.
and thank you God.."

As much as this entry is inevitable. I found it very uncomfortable. Very unfitting to type out in words. But then again it must be the overwhelming emotional effect. People kept saying that i could have just cried. Darn right i could. I had to swallow tears for crying out loud. It was really uncomfortable. I kept asking myself stupid questions.. How could that many do that much for just that one? Why would all of them get out of their comfort zones on such a perfect evening? Why all the sacrifice? I just couldn't make sense of it all. But i know that in the end, God would make sense of it all somehow someway. And after some quiet time, the message couldn't be clearer. If i reckon that i rightfully deserve to be a child of God, joint heir with Christ, why bother questioning anything else? I have no right to weigh my life as it is.

Nevertheless, to those who mean so much to me,

Thank you loving me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it. But I then again, I have not said much because there is nothing I can say that would describe how I feel as perfectly as you deserve it.

t